Archive for April 2016

Lessons I've Learned from being Sick:

1. Always listen to your body, if it tells you something is wrong follow the trail

2. If you feel repelled by something food or medicine don't take it. Your body is speaking listen.

3. Dr.'s are human and they can make mistakes too

4. Being sick is the best time to connect with who you really are

5. Life always has a way of humbling you

6. Be patient

7. Be kind, especially to yourself

8. It's ok to be selfish sometimes

9. Surrender

10. Don't apologize for being sick

11. People will leave you, not because your sick but because they are meant to

12. Feel, feel everything, feel sad, feel mad, feel frustrated, feel empowered, feel lonely, but feel

13. Being sick is a lesson in disguise, be grateful you get to be a student

14. Laugh, because even though your sick your still alive

15. Be grateful

I don't have solid answers just yet from doctors but it's safe to say I'm not depressed or feeling anxiety. 90% of women's heart problems are often misdiagnosed because we don't have the same symptoms as men. Things are being sorted out and sometimes I feel like talking about it and sometimes I don't feel like talking about it. I appreciate the love and support but sometimes it's hard to answer questions when I don't have answers myself. So I'm still alive, I'm on bed rest until further notice. Some days I'm really tired, some days I feel a little better. It depends and I'm not quite sure on what? What I know for sure is no caffeine, no exercise, no stress, just patience and love ❤️

Support Your Local Poets

After being mesmerized by the words of poet Warsan Shire in Beyonce's Lemonade. I can't help but think of poets in my community, poets that look and sound like me. Poets that don't look and sound like me. I had forgotten how touching words can be when spoken out loud.

Frida

"Tú mereces lo mejor de lo mejor, porque tú eres una de esas pocas personas que, en este mísero mundo siguen siendo honestas consigo mismas y esa es la única cosa que realmente cuenta."

I'm Sorry

Sometimes we get so caught up waiting for an apology, we forget to ask for forgiveness. There is a certain courage you have to muster, to own up to your mistakes, to own up to the parts of you that may not be so easy to love.. This morning I had to ask someone for forgiveness, and it's scary. It's an apology I've been putting off bc I've had to own up to things I'm not so proud of but I thought what's worse... Feeling the fear and doing it anyways, or having the weight of it crush me every day I don't do it? Having the weight and possible regret of not being promised tomorrow? The death of Prince broke my heart and reminded me that I really don't know how much time I have. That people that come into my life can be gone from one day to the next... What's more important?